My Thoughts of Seeing KISS for the First Time Since My Brother Jimmy Died My brother Jimmy my best friend who died 9 days before mine and his son's birthday January 9 2004. He was only 39.He understood me and my love for KISS we shared that bond together along with our love of football and hockey.He taught me so much. We went to our first KISS concert together in 1978 and our last together in 2000 passing the torch to my sons by taking them to shows too! My sons Gary and Nick always talk about how much they loved him and miss him he was a great uncle to them. I miss him every day and am still lost without him!!! It devastated me and even though he sent me an angel named Chuck who has helped me live and love again and in a lot of ways is like Jimmy he has a big heart like him. I still have a big part of my heart that died the day he did, and even though i love him I am pissed off he left us! I miss his children Chelsea and Dalton who were the loves of his life. It is still so painful losing my best friend my big brother who I miss every moment of every day! I miss picking up the phone and talking to him about sports and things like the New England Patriots winning super bowls and the Red Sox winning the world series the Bruins still losing in the playoffs and just talking to him about nothing but I go on to keep his memory alive!! Now 10 years after we went to our last KISS concert together I am finally ready to go again. I have not gone to see KISS since he died. I wanted to but I felt it would not be the same, I would felt guilty that I am there and he is not and I guess I just did not want to turn to look for him next to me and he would not be there. I now feel I am ready again to see KISS. I have the greatest loving husband in the world who does not judge me when I would cry out of the blue when I would here a song or see a video or a sports game that would remind me of my brother. He let me mourn, and I had for many years but now I have gotten past a lot of that. My husband has not replaced my brother not at all but like Jimmy has accepted me and loved me for who I am unconditionally. My husband Chuck is a KISS virgin. He has never seen them live in concert and will now. I will look at him and see the awe in his face at the show because although he has seen videos he ain't seen nothing yet! He is a metal head like me so I know he will love it. I am getting the excitement of knowing I am going to see KISS as I did in the past and I know my brother Jimmy will be there also because this concert is the one of the finally tests of me moving on without him . That's why I have not gone to see them before this I could not move on. I told my husband I might cry at the concert but I will probably cry after the show. Not crying for the loss of my brother but crying for joy that I shared this with Chuck and yes something that has meant so much to me since I was six years old and I believe my brother will be happy that I finally went back to where I belong ...to see KISS again!